Remaining yourself

In love the paradox occurs that two beings become one

and yet remain two.

Erich Fromm

You And I

If you press me to say why I loved him,

I can say no more than because he was he,

and I was I.

Michel de Montaigne

Pulling Through

No matter how wide and tall the wall in front of me is;

Thinking that your hand will always be there to pull me through,

It is enough for me to continue on...

That's what it is

Love doesn't make the world go round.

Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.

-Franklin P. Jones-

Fall...

Don't find love,

let love find you.

That's why it's called falling in love,

because you don't force yourself to fall,

you just fall.

by Amber

Another book...

I guess I've finally exhausted my previous book,

And I've spent countless nights and day reading and re-reading my old book,

Crying and laughing along with the storyline...

And unexpectedly, I've begin a new chapter in a new book;

I hope this book never ends,

And will take me further into my dreams...

Much love~

I Will

If someone seriously wants to be part of your life...

They will seriously make an effort to be in it.

This time, for you...

I WILL!

Katherine McPhee - Terrified

You set it again, my heart's in motion

And I'm in love,

And I'm terrified,

For the first time, and the last time

In my only life....

Full lyrics: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/katharine-mcphee-lyrics/terrified-lyrics.html

In The End..

S.O.S...

I've tried running, walking, jumping...

I've tried forgetting, smiling, crying...

I thought I was through with you,

but actually I didn't budge from my old spot...

In the end, I'm back to square one...

In the end, I can't forget you...

In the end, I can't let you go...

In the end, you still have the most important piece of my heart...

In the end, I'm just a little too not over you...

But, the worse thing is I'm loving it...

Billy Joel - Honesty

Honesty is such a lonely word,

everyone is so untrue.

Honesty is hardly ever heard,

and mostly what I need from you

It's The End...

When everything's been said and done;

All's that's left to do is to say goodbye...

"Live through this and you won't look back;

There's one thing I want to say so I'll be brave;

You were what I wanted

I gave what I gave;

I'm not sorry I met you;

I'm not sorry it's over;

I'm not sorry there's nothing to save..."

...from Stars - Your ex-lover is dead

Like an Ocean...

"Like an ocean,

You're too salty to be drank;

And too deep to be understood..."

...from manhwa 'I Love You'

Sunflower and the Sun

"Waiting like the sunflower,

Always gazing towards the sun

with neither hate nor regret;

Patiently bearing the pain

waiting for the sun to shine again;

Continuing to look up with a smile

even through strong wind and heavy rain;

But the sunflower has never felt

nor will it ever feel;

Regret..."

... Zhuo Ling Bin from 1/2 Prince. XD

Please give me the courage

Although I've been telling myself to move on until I've lost count,

I still revert to space-out mode whenever I encounter things that brings back those memories...

Maybe it's really time to take serious actions... Please give me enough courage to get through this phase which I should've got through so long ago...

I'm just not the one...

"I've always thought we're the perfect match made in heaven,
that no one could compare to us...
But then I realise,
I'm just not suitable for someone like you"

Turning point

I've always thought that my life would remain static forever... until 2 weeks ago. Everything took a 180 degrees turn. It's awful. I used to assume that I'm always ready to put down something if it is very dear for me, for their own good... Even if it hurts me. Just that I've never thought that it would hurt so bad. Until I almost lost myself... I've lost my pillar of strength. Confusion overwhelmed me to the point that I could only stare at what happened and start crying... Although I'm better now.. My tears are starting to dry up. But, whenever I'm alone or feeling down, the wound reopens and continues to haunt me. When will it be cured? The small little things you do cuts me... The lost warmth from you, kills me... I'm constantly hurt from the little things you do. I'm constantly tired by the drama I have to fake. I'm starting to accept it as my day-to-day occurence. Then another thing happened to make it worse...

My beloved hamster, Chumi ChuChu, passed away. I didn't even get to say goodbye because of my recklessness. He didn't even get to see the chinese new year. He left us during the Chinese New Year's eve. I only started crying when i took him out of his house to be buried. When I touched his hard little body, I couldn't supress it. It is almost depressing to lose 2 precious things at one time. Worst of all, they are away from you when you want them around. First time encountering such feeling and it cuts so deep... I wonder if such things happens again, will I be brave enough to overcome it? Rest in peace Chumi, we love you a lot... Now that you and ChiChi(my other hamster who only survived 5 months, RIP two years ago) are gone from me, I can only wish for you to have all the happiness in the world.

No matter what happens, you, you and you are very precious to me and will always have a place in my heart...

Rest in peace Chumi...

*thanks to my friends who have supported me so much...Without you guys, I'm sure everything would be harder..*

I don't know since when my blog has turned so emo. Bear with me...

Yet another suprise.. or maybe not?

And here I thought we were advancing...

But why is it that new issues keep arising..

They make me wonder if we're really advancing...

Things that I thought never would happen again...

Things that I thought only happened in the early days..

Things like buildings burnt for revenge...

Chaos created when it isn't a very BIG issue..

Again, another issue that suprised me...

But then again, maybe it's not a big suprise after all... considering their pea brains?

*it's gonna take more than just prayers to make it happen.

Long wait...

I know how it's going to end.

I can see the big tank with wisps of smoke ready to scourge me..

I can feel the menacing teeth of the blood-red blade thirsty for more..

But, when is my time?

I can feel more space as more of my mates are taken out.

At least they don't have to suffer the wait...

Knowing that you're dying, but waiting and waiting...

The wait... It kills me inside...

I'd rather be finished off now.

I'm calling while I still have the voice to..

I'm eating while I'm still offered to...

Anything but closing my eyes...

As I know a long sleep will befall me soon.

If I were to be given an option to be back to where I belong, will I accept it?

Now that I know the sweet taste that is in front of me, I won't give it up for anything..

I don't want to go out and hear the whispers of sweet-nothings...

Promises which are left at that... Just promises... Nothing more, nothing less.

Dissappointed endlessly..

As the door opens and a hand stretches in to reach after me..

Finally...

The long wait has come to an end...

*inspired by the chickens in Pudu Market. Depressed after seeing the fate that befalls them... ><

Just like fireworks

Just like that, a year has passed.

What happened you might ask, but I'm still in a daze - again and again - by how fast time flies.

No doubt, bad things happen, but never forget the good stuffs.

That's how we get on with life.

Look at the positive stuffs. Easier said than done.

But, let's cherish our lives.

Because you'll never get another shot at life.

Just like fireworks, short and sweet.