I Will

If someone seriously wants to be part of your life...

They will seriously make an effort to be in it.

This time, for you...

I WILL!

Katherine McPhee - Terrified

You set it again, my heart's in motion

And I'm in love,

And I'm terrified,

For the first time, and the last time

In my only life....

Full lyrics: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/katharine-mcphee-lyrics/terrified-lyrics.html

In The End..

S.O.S...

I've tried running, walking, jumping...

I've tried forgetting, smiling, crying...

I thought I was through with you,

but actually I didn't budge from my old spot...

In the end, I'm back to square one...

In the end, I can't forget you...

In the end, I can't let you go...

In the end, you still have the most important piece of my heart...

In the end, I'm just a little too not over you...

But, the worse thing is I'm loving it...

Billy Joel - Honesty

Honesty is such a lonely word,

everyone is so untrue.

Honesty is hardly ever heard,

and mostly what I need from you

It's The End...

When everything's been said and done;

All's that's left to do is to say goodbye...

"Live through this and you won't look back;

There's one thing I want to say so I'll be brave;

You were what I wanted

I gave what I gave;

I'm not sorry I met you;

I'm not sorry it's over;

I'm not sorry there's nothing to save..."

...from Stars - Your ex-lover is dead

Like an Ocean...

"Like an ocean,

You're too salty to be drank;

And too deep to be understood..."

...from manhwa 'I Love You'

Sunflower and the Sun

"Waiting like the sunflower,

Always gazing towards the sun

with neither hate nor regret;

Patiently bearing the pain

waiting for the sun to shine again;

Continuing to look up with a smile

even through strong wind and heavy rain;

But the sunflower has never felt

nor will it ever feel;

Regret..."

... Zhuo Ling Bin from 1/2 Prince. XD

Please give me the courage

Although I've been telling myself to move on until I've lost count,

I still revert to space-out mode whenever I encounter things that brings back those memories...

Maybe it's really time to take serious actions... Please give me enough courage to get through this phase which I should've got through so long ago...

I'm just not the one...

"I've always thought we're the perfect match made in heaven,
that no one could compare to us...
But then I realise,
I'm just not suitable for someone like you"

Turning point

I've always thought that my life would remain static forever... until 2 weeks ago. Everything took a 180 degrees turn. It's awful. I used to assume that I'm always ready to put down something if it is very dear for me, for their own good... Even if it hurts me. Just that I've never thought that it would hurt so bad. Until I almost lost myself... I've lost my pillar of strength. Confusion overwhelmed me to the point that I could only stare at what happened and start crying... Although I'm better now.. My tears are starting to dry up. But, whenever I'm alone or feeling down, the wound reopens and continues to haunt me. When will it be cured? The small little things you do cuts me... The lost warmth from you, kills me... I'm constantly hurt from the little things you do. I'm constantly tired by the drama I have to fake. I'm starting to accept it as my day-to-day occurence. Then another thing happened to make it worse...

My beloved hamster, Chumi ChuChu, passed away. I didn't even get to say goodbye because of my recklessness. He didn't even get to see the chinese new year. He left us during the Chinese New Year's eve. I only started crying when i took him out of his house to be buried. When I touched his hard little body, I couldn't supress it. It is almost depressing to lose 2 precious things at one time. Worst of all, they are away from you when you want them around. First time encountering such feeling and it cuts so deep... I wonder if such things happens again, will I be brave enough to overcome it? Rest in peace Chumi, we love you a lot... Now that you and ChiChi(my other hamster who only survived 5 months, RIP two years ago) are gone from me, I can only wish for you to have all the happiness in the world.

No matter what happens, you, you and you are very precious to me and will always have a place in my heart...

Rest in peace Chumi...

*thanks to my friends who have supported me so much...Without you guys, I'm sure everything would be harder..*

I don't know since when my blog has turned so emo. Bear with me...