Turning point

I've always thought that my life would remain static forever... until 2 weeks ago. Everything took a 180 degrees turn. It's awful. I used to assume that I'm always ready to put down something if it is very dear for me, for their own good... Even if it hurts me. Just that I've never thought that it would hurt so bad. Until I almost lost myself... I've lost my pillar of strength. Confusion overwhelmed me to the point that I could only stare at what happened and start crying... Although I'm better now.. My tears are starting to dry up. But, whenever I'm alone or feeling down, the wound reopens and continues to haunt me. When will it be cured? The small little things you do cuts me... The lost warmth from you, kills me... I'm constantly hurt from the little things you do. I'm constantly tired by the drama I have to fake. I'm starting to accept it as my day-to-day occurence. Then another thing happened to make it worse...

My beloved hamster, Chumi ChuChu, passed away. I didn't even get to say goodbye because of my recklessness. He didn't even get to see the chinese new year. He left us during the Chinese New Year's eve. I only started crying when i took him out of his house to be buried. When I touched his hard little body, I couldn't supress it. It is almost depressing to lose 2 precious things at one time. Worst of all, they are away from you when you want them around. First time encountering such feeling and it cuts so deep... I wonder if such things happens again, will I be brave enough to overcome it? Rest in peace Chumi, we love you a lot... Now that you and ChiChi(my other hamster who only survived 5 months, RIP two years ago) are gone from me, I can only wish for you to have all the happiness in the world.

No matter what happens, you, you and you are very precious to me and will always have a place in my heart...

Rest in peace Chumi...

*thanks to my friends who have supported me so much...Without you guys, I'm sure everything would be harder..*

I don't know since when my blog has turned so emo. Bear with me...

Yet another suprise.. or maybe not?

And here I thought we were advancing...

But why is it that new issues keep arising..

They make me wonder if we're really advancing...

Things that I thought never would happen again...

Things that I thought only happened in the early days..

Things like buildings burnt for revenge...

Chaos created when it isn't a very BIG issue..

Again, another issue that suprised me...

But then again, maybe it's not a big suprise after all... considering their pea brains?

*it's gonna take more than just prayers to make it happen.

Long wait...

I know how it's going to end.

I can see the big tank with wisps of smoke ready to scourge me..

I can feel the menacing teeth of the blood-red blade thirsty for more..

But, when is my time?

I can feel more space as more of my mates are taken out.

At least they don't have to suffer the wait...

Knowing that you're dying, but waiting and waiting...

The wait... It kills me inside...

I'd rather be finished off now.

I'm calling while I still have the voice to..

I'm eating while I'm still offered to...

Anything but closing my eyes...

As I know a long sleep will befall me soon.

If I were to be given an option to be back to where I belong, will I accept it?

Now that I know the sweet taste that is in front of me, I won't give it up for anything..

I don't want to go out and hear the whispers of sweet-nothings...

Promises which are left at that... Just promises... Nothing more, nothing less.

Dissappointed endlessly..

As the door opens and a hand stretches in to reach after me..

Finally...

The long wait has come to an end...

*inspired by the chickens in Pudu Market. Depressed after seeing the fate that befalls them... ><

Just like fireworks

Just like that, a year has passed.

What happened you might ask, but I'm still in a daze - again and again - by how fast time flies.

No doubt, bad things happen, but never forget the good stuffs.

That's how we get on with life.

Look at the positive stuffs. Easier said than done.

But, let's cherish our lives.

Because you'll never get another shot at life.

Just like fireworks, short and sweet.

Innocent Search Gone Awfully Wrong - Simon

Gosh... It's been 2 weeks since Uni started. Week 3 starts now!!!

Well, with only 4 subjects to tackle and out of it, only 2 has final exams!!!

If you think it's going to be a smooth sailing semester - then I can tell you that you should wake up!!! ARGH!!! That applies to me too.

First, there's the Pengajian Malaysia assignment which is due in Week 5. So far, We've decided what topic to do. But, my research is still not done yet. D.I.E!!! And I've never scored an A during PMR or SPM. Sad I know. And now it's Pengajian Malaysia? God only knows what happens...

Then, there's Sun Tzu assignment which is due in Week5~6. I've done quite some research for 3 days!!! Argh!!! And managed to find quite some useful stuffs. At least I've done half of my part. Oh, and I always find myself getting distracted during Sun Tzu lectures. The subject is interesting, mind you. Maybe I didn't take a liking towards the lecturer.. Urgh... This is one of the subjects without final exams. Wohoo!!!

Academic Writing is okay. I don't have much complain about this subject. Except I would have to broaden my knowledge on world issues to write. *sighs* I've always preferred fiction. *sulks* It's where imagination runs wild..! Maybe I just don't like restrictions. =(

And here comes the "fun" subject: Oral Communications. It's fun because we don't have to study like hell like the other subjects. And so far, we had drama, creative singing and composing, case study and mime - where you can't talk and act out something farnee which reminds me of Pokemon and Mr. Bean. The lecturer is quite a fun guy. And we'll be having assessments and assignments to get 100% - which means no finals also. Hee..~~~

So far, everything seems okay and predictably - RUSHED!!! *Akon - Rush*

I wanna find a way to get out of here~~~ Rush Rush...

==

Lame...

And, I'm down with flu and minor cough. Flu always lead me to think of H1N1... Zzzz...

If I'm dead... Please gimme black roses. =x... LOL

Oh.. it's suffering I tell you. Sneezing every possible waking minute... *exaggerates*...

But, I sneezed and coughed to the extent of aching ribs. Must be something, huh?

And my eyes.. GOSH!!! My eyes are already small as it is.. Now it's droopy. Like I'm going to faint anytime. ==... I wonder if it'll worsen to slits. LOL... I'm really reluctant to go to uni. Feeling really weak. But... toughen up!!! HAIT!!!

P.S: Google is such an amazing tool. Ever heard of: innocent search turn awfully wrong? quoted by Simon. Mine did. I thought of typing "History of Toyota Corona". Typing the first 3 alphabets into the search box lead me to a whole new level of OMGWTH-ness. If your google has automated search, you should try. Type in "his" and see what comes out... I was shocked and perplexed to the maximum!!! I didn't know that there'll actually be people googling about this kind off stuffs!!! Like what Beh said - Practically everything under the sun could be googled. I storied this to my bestie and she seemingly can't stop laughing. Sadz... Is it them.. Or is it just me?

Beloved Rascal Turned 15~~~!

Woot!!! It's my beloved rascal brother turned 15!!! Yeah... I heart him~~~

How fast time flies. I was ransacking the drawer to find something and came across the pictures of him when he was still really small. And I was shocked with the transformation. The really cute boy turned to such a devil!!! Heee...

But whatever happens, he's still my lil' brother.. oops.. Not really little. Dah besar dah.. Haha...

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY BRO!!!! IT'S TIME TO GROW UP. MAY YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE YAR!!!

Loves,

Your Crazy Sis. XOXO

Freedom Beach Concert '09

WooHoo~~~

Akon's concert is the second concert I've attended - the first was Guang Liang's concert!!! Also thanks to Chivas. And big huggies to Brandon Chinese for the tickets!!! It was at the Sunway Lagoon Surf Beach.


*hearts*



Oh.. about the concert. It was all good. Simon was the most excited one because among us - Lynnett, Simon and Me - he is the biggest fan. LOL. Wesha (Brandon's "friend") was there too. And Brandon was busy switching between VIP and Chivalry Zone. Hahx...
Among the songs I recognize sung by Akon was Dangerous, Beautiful, Right Now, Don't Matter, I Wanna Love You, Smack That... That's all I remembered. LOL! There were other songs of course.
Akon also get off the stage to get carried by his fans! Luckily we weren't in front of the line.. I can imagine Lynn's face if the water splashed on her. LOL!
And we bumped into Jack and Dan. Hahx
We also hit the club (Euphoria by MOS) for the after-party.
It's my first time stepping into a club!!! Haha... Pardon my "sakai"-ness
But it wasn't much of an experience.
Because I didn't get to drink anything... *sobs*
And we didn't dance also.
So, I didn't get much of the Club feeling. *sighs*
Anyway, I'll make sure the next time I hit any clubs, I'll make it a more memorable one. Ehehe~~~
We left early - Around 12 midnight?
And went for tea in Wong Kok.
And Dan came in and sapu all the food. Haha.. He's REALLY hungry.
As usual, concerts don't allow camera or recorders. But of course, camera comes in real handy here. XD...
Will try to upload more pictures about his concert.
All in all, it was an enjoyable concert!

My Honey Bee turning 19~~~

27th September 2009

Yeappy yeap! Lynnett my honey bee officially turned 19 on this auspicious date. XD...
We celebrated it in Winter Warmers, The Curve on the 25th September 2009.
Li Vern, Venn Kay, Chee Kien, Sue Anne, my Darling and Simon came!!!
Heee... Been so long since I've seen Li Vern and Venn Kay.
And always called Vern as Venn and vice-versa. And they, of course, shooted me. LOL!!!
Will remind myself about this...

Me and Chee Kien went to Times Square to get Lynn's birthday present on the day itself.

Everything was really rushed as I was having exams during that period. *sighs*

Oh well.. Luckily it all turned out well.

I'm the rubber duckie and she's the honey bee!!!

Love you loads woman.

I hope your year will be smooth.

And don't worry, I'm catching up with u.

Give me another 2 months. Teehee!!!

May your wishes come true.

Take care!!!

Our friendship is one of the things I cherish manyak-manyak!!! XD

Loves,

Your Yellow Balloon!!!

*pictures will b posted ASAP!!! FAST LA CHEE KIEN!!!*

HAPPY 21st DARL!!!

12th SEPTEMBER 2009

This is the big day where Darling turned 21~~~Yeap! It's the big 21 everyone goes through once in a lifetime!!! And thus, it's only normal to make it a B.I.G one!!!

Oh by the way. The real thing is supposed to be on the 16^th. But, it's a weekday. So... Saturday it shall be!!! XD

The Agenda where so much sweat n blood is put into it. ==... That's what happens when a perfectionist is at work!!! XD

The birthday boy man and his mum!!! So handsome right??? XD

And not forgetting to show off his talents - his singing - along with his guitarist friend who also got to sing a Malay song.

Oh, before that.. He was presenting a slideshow of his life. Which is interesting. His baby pictures.. And his transformation. XD... Which is really vain!!!

His mum's speech which is memorable.. "I know I'm supposed to give a key to him for his 21^st.. But, it's not a key to his freedom"

Hahax!!!

That's the blueberry cake!!! Uber big and creamy. Looks nice~~~ =D. And it's shaped like a key too!!!

The eating competition where me and Jacqueline has to compete with guys. For God's Sake!!! If I win, I'll really do a war dance. And smack the guys for losing to a girl in eating. Hahax!!!

Whee~~~ It's us!!! Lynn, Me and Sue Anne!

o.O.. Haha.. Gabriel and Chee Kien!

Not forgetting Simon & Brandon. They're doing hard-gay for the whole night. ==

Brandon & Lynn who managed to get first place for the eating competition. Gratz~~~ 2 pendrives!!!

There's also the Charade competition.

Pole-dancing competition(funny version). o.O..

Sadly didn't get any picture of it.

But trust me, it's really hillarious. XD

Credits to: Brandon Chinese for these pictures.

Haha... That's what you'd call a birthday boy. Not official without him looking like this!!!

So, my wishes comes here:

Happy 21^st Birthday dear. I guess 21 is a turning point in everyone's lives? And I think it'll affect in a way or the other. Haha.. I hope you've had a memorable 21st Birthday Party and may your coming years be a good one. Hee~~~ No matter what, I'll be supporting you.

Loving you as always,

Christina...

Vannessa Hudgens - Papercut

Vannessa Hudgens - Papercut

It’s not a feeling like when you touch a flame
No, it’s not like when someone calls you a bad name
It’s not like the hurt when you slip and fall down
No, it’s not like anyof these, what I’ve found is

Your love hurts like a paper cut, so sweet
never even feel the slice; you’re so deep
It seems so hard as, but only at first
Cause like a paper cut the pain grows worse.

Oh, oh

It’s not so much in the words that you don’t say
It’s when you act in the distant, cold way
It’s more in your eyes how you look at me
Like you no longer care for what I see

Your love hurts like a paper cut, so sweet
never even feel the slice; you’re so deep
It seems so hard as, but only at first
Cause like a paper cut the pain grows worse.

You had to go and show me just how good, your love could be
Then you threw it all away
Now I can’t help but feel a brand new pain
So I’m asking baby, please stay.

Your love hurts like a paper cut, so sweet
never even feel the slice; you’re so deep
It seems so hard as, but only at first
Cause like a paper cut the pain grows worse.

Oh, oh
Oh, oh
The pain grows worse
Oh, oh
Oh, oh
The pain grows worse
Oh, oh
The pains grows worse

*Thanks BP for sending me the song. Loving it!!!*